Thoughts to ponder..

Too much thoughts to pen all of them down.. Endless thoughts of them..
Some I don't think i should pen them down.. i think i will tell them to Mimi better..

Dao Di Shi Ni Hai Shi Wo Xiang De Tai Duo..
Dao Di Shi Shui Zai Zi Zuo Duo Qing?

Emo week for me, which I don't even know the roots to it.

How Fragile, How Weak, How Pathetic..
Such fragile heart I have, I pity myself..

No matter how hard I tried to mend it, to strengthen it..
It just seems like its made up of glass instead of flesh and blood..

In the past, maybe I choose to break others' heart before mine is broken..
That might just an excuse but it resulted in me being over possessive..

I tried to look at the bigger pictures now..
Trying to find a heart bigger than a bear..

Wheres the strength for me to seek, to try, to give it a shot..
I felt im so forsaken here.. I am starting to give up mending this frail heart of mine..

Dark Monday~

Dark clouds hovering over the sky.. It's always been like this for the past 4days but its bright outside~!

10am in DA morning and i have nothing else to do.. BORINGGGG.. think for the next 15mins if nothing else gonna happens, i will go for a run with my flu muhaha :P

Last night was fun chatting with Yudan and Kahei over dinner and at Starbucks. We managed to talk for 4hours lol :P

Anyway the Signature Hot Chocolate at TM Starbucks is delicious man~ We ordered large and it was too tasty :P

Are you gonna just leave me like this, alone or am I the one leaving u alone? Confusing -.-

Thursday 13/09/07

This was meant to be posted on Thursday lol, just one day after POP~!! * POP LOOOOOOOOO*

LOL the 8 of us, 8 including me.. 8 mad guys went to Sentosa straight 1 day after POP from Tekong Island. LOL the names are ME, Bernard, HaoJie, Victor, Junjie, Joshua, Dianel and Randy.

We missed the sun so we went to Sentosa for another round of sun tanning muhaha.. We took lots of random pics. * Gonna post them up later, too many already :P *

Whats missing there are the BABES!! Well, its a Thursday, what can we expect eh? Lol, so practically the 8 of us just slack around, BBQ ourselves under the sun and dip in the sea. Playing frisbees and volleyball. 6 Straight hours of sun tanning on the beach * u can see the side effect on me now :P * After which, we went to this hmm in my own point of view, Classy Japanese restaurant at Vivo City. The prices on the menu are woohoo * 1 bowl of plain rice cost $2.50 :X * I ordered a pork cutlet don with curry and few little small items.. We shared 2 jug of beer too lol, it was bare minimum though.. We still took pictures like some tourist lol.. We even asked the waitresses there to help 8 of us take pictures. The waitresses, most of them are quite pretty *shy* but seriously young, like 17 n 18 this year but they certainly look cute :D

And so the day ended then due to time constrains :/ awwww..

SO here are the random pictures~~~



Its dinner timeeee~~~

A brand new life awaits..

So fast and 3 months had passed.. didn't thought i might even miss those 3 months of my life in Tekong Island.

No more push ups, runnings, no more living out in the jungle.. I am back to somewhere bathing and sleeping isn't precious anymore lol.

These days I been thinking, been planning, been working out.. so glad that I had seen the rewards to all the effort. Finally, most of my life had pieced back into one.

Be it physically or mentally I had already grown this much.. so proud of myself :P

Now.. theres this much awaits me behind the new door in my life.. and I am just the right key to open this door.. can't wait to open the door of fate and embrace the new warmth of life :)

Well well well.. small parts of my life will always remain incomplete.. just when will you piece the missing puzzle of my heart? The picture will never be completed without you..


aisaretai demo aisou to shinai....

Eye Candy of August

Eye Candy of The Month (August)

Goes to..


Lim Hao Jie!!

Birthday: 270386
Height: 173cm
Weight: 63Kg
Blood Type : B+
Fitness Level: Ippt Sliver
Status: Blissfully In Love
Hobbies: Gaming, Animeing

:Slogan:
Later my Laopo...

Eye Candy Of September

Eye Candy of The Month ( September )

Goes to..

Chng Chay Beng Bernard!!

Birthday: 061088
Height: 174cm
Weight: 63Kg
Blood Type : A+
Fitness Level : Ippt Gold
Status: Single
Hobbies: Drawing, Reading manga..

:Slogan:
One step for J coy, One more for Platoon2, One more for Section4, One more towards our Dreams!

What's this indescribable weird feeling?!

Hmmm, what's this seriously weird feeling I have? I cant describe it but I know its totally negative! shucks!!

A series of good news to be reported..

Good news NO.1 : 3 more days and its POP LLOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Good news NO.2 : Sliver for IPPT !! * Finnalllly *

Good news NO.3 : NOOOOOOO Booking In for SUNDAY!!! * Accumulated too much incentives, MuhA!

Good news NO.4 : Possible chance of Nights Out on Monday and Tuesday!! * Nights out aka out of the island for the night*

Good news NO.5 : I am given a chance to show my sincerity..

er.. I am.. ?

My dear blog,

I don't know what to say to you..

I added a new tag board on you for some purposes..

Hmm.. I am just tired lol, I did not sleep on Wednesday and Thursday night..

I played basketball this morning at Seng Kang at 9am after eating breakfast with my dad..

I am less than 2 hours away from booking in..

I miss everything and anything and anyone outside camp..

I am so glad that u are here to entertain or rather chat with me even though we are so randomly chatting lol..

I hope this time..
Life lesson learnt will gona be the last few already..
It didnt literally cost me something but it sure inflicted some damage to my heart..

I am more clear headed now, all thanks to your care..

Thank you..

-emo.. again-

Regrets...

我的人生的一大禁字。。。

悔

这一生，不想再忏悔。。。

以后再也不想后悔或有后悔的机会。。。

我答应我自己。。。

一定要做得尽善尽美。。。

A very naughty boy

Lets see..

I've been awake for like about 0530am on 080807 till 1200 on 090807..

I still wide awake, but if I were to lie on the bed, I will sleep like a pig..

Then again..

I will be going out this late afternoon, maybe hanging out tonight again..

Lol, I can see myself reducing to skeleton already..

I need someone to care for and to care about me..

Lets seek that someone in my dreams soon..

And I have not filled my 2nd wife with songs yet..

She's just lovely..

Oh ya, been 2months, i improved my 2.4km running timings constantly..

And I think im kinda lazy already, so glad that its still improving..

From the very first time, 16mins for the stupid unfair nafa 2.4km run on TP grounds..

Till the recent IPPT in BMT, 11.40mins and below, a silver timing now :)

Last and not least, I wish i own 48hours now..

Its simply not enough at all.. I wish to sleep more~

Im so dead...

-Cheers-

oopS

OOpS lol, i got my 2nd wife already :P she's in red in color. HOOOttttTTtttTTT

A pity she cant accompany me into camp. DAMN!! hehex

Thanks Pretty Shyuan for accompany me there. Didn't want to waste the trip there with u just buying 2 pens and having a great lunch there? hehe so i decided to buy that mp3 :P

RANDOM~!

-Random 1-
Lol seriously im not some EMO freak that worshiping EMO bands. Lol i just love Blues and Jazz based genre songs. I dont really go into EMO lol. I just love love songs? lol love love -.- wth im typing but anyway u know what im saying hehe.

-Random 2-
Im thinking really hard. Should i bring jacket? Lol i so afraid that she's cold but i cant think of any reason why i shouldnt bring jacket for her. Should i wear shades? LOL there's no sun currently! im wearing the pink stripes long sleeves button shirt with jeans. hmmmmm i just afraid that im overly 'anyhow' dressed lol

-Random 3-
Should i just pop out of my house now and go her void deck just to wait for her? Lol we were supposed to meet at 1100 but she's a 'drag-queen' :X The real drag tho :X heheheehehe

-Random 4-
Its totally random but im listening to some new songs lol. And i mean freshly 'baked'.

Justin Timberlake - Summer Love
Mutya Buena - Real Girl
Hinder - Lips of An Angel ( Acoustic )* Great song, My fav :P *
Hinder - Lips of An Angel
Rihana - Umbrella (ft. JayZ)
Rihana - Umbrella, Cinderalla Remix (ft. JayZ)
Coldplay - In My Place
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
Stone Sour - Through Glass

Some old songs too...

王力宏 - 爱错
Matchbox 20 - Time After Time (Live)
Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober
Ryan Cabrera - Photo

-Random 5-
Should i add a tagboard? I cant reply as often as anyone out there lol, i wonder whats the use of tagboard if im not around to reply hmmmmm. I think i should link up my friends too lol, but i seldom see anyone online when im on. how? -.- lol

-Cheers-

Just like good old days~

Good morning everyone! :) what a nice Sunday morning, light breeze with warm sunlight.

First of all, i would like to wish my Xiao Xia Mei, a very Happy 19th Birthday! May all your wishes all come true, hope that you can find someone who loves u soon :) Like i said, next week I will have a long weekend. So next week find Xia Ah Bu then we go have a nice dinner ok? MY TREAT (: (: (:

Back to what I gona blog.

Hee, this morning I felt like a small boy. My dad brought me out to the Mac nearby to eat breakfast! Like the same old days, at least 10 years ago, i used to have Mac breakfast every weekend with my parents! :) To fit the mood, i ordered the good old Hotcakes :P hehe, and my dad as usual eat his Big Breakfast. What's different now is that we drink the tasteless black coffee now :P I didn't want to order Ice Milo caused Im coughing. See Im such a good boy :X

Packed my bag already, today booking timing really sucked. 1830 I have to be at Pasir Ris Bus Interchange already. SADDED... BUT never mind, caused Im meeting Piggy Shyuan soon like in 1hour time, 1100 lol. Taking a walk at Vivo, which i wanted to take a walk yesterday but both of us slacking and sleeping the whole afternoon. By chance, she wanted to walk Vivo yesterday too but her friend was too busy to entertain her. So we decided to walk Vivo today! Its a walk seriously. I just wanna take a look at my new found love which i might just eventually get it later on :X lol. Red or Black.. hmm i wonder.. see what Panda might say :P

Anyway for u people to know, theres someone in the SAF HQ or in short, in the entire army. Theres this someone who is in charge to sit infront of the computer 24 / 7 just to read and search blog. Lol, how i wish i can have that job too!

!!!* Saluting to that whoever reading everyone's blog*!!!

Zooooooom off to get ready already!!

-Cheers-

Let there be light!

I've been living in darkness when the night fall during the past 5 days from Sunday!!

How much i appreciate bathing and light now, you will never ever gonna experience that if you don't serve the Army :P

Enough of crap i just wanna share the joy!!

Anyway this weekend i gonna spend more money again!! WOOTS

Look at my new found love!!


This is Samsung Mp3 Player, K3 ( Black and Red color)

Awwwwwww, isnt that a beauty!! Its so freaking pretty, i saw the green one my platoon mate has it. Its freaking cool and slick to hold!! :)

Morning Light..

Slept at 3am, Woke up at 8am
Total time slept : 5hours

My weekend is too short to be spent sleeping lol. That's why from 1st day of enlistment i haven been resting well. Woke up early, washed up and joined my parents for breakfast. They fed me as long army has no food! Lol, ate WanTon Mee, ate Kosong Prata and Egg Prata, with a nice warm cup of Teh. Nice breakfast eh :P Was playing my PSP on the way, finally got to touch and talk to my baby lol. It totally rocks to own a PSP lol.

Reached home at around 11am, managed to fill in my PSP to the max. Im so prepared to go into confinement already! I got 8hrs + 8hrs + 6hrs of battery. muhaha!! But its never enough de la :( I put in movies lots of songs and games!!

After fixing up my PSP, the piggy came online! lol surprisingly she woke up earlier than I expected her to wake up, she's having pizza today la. Every week i sure post SOME random fact about her so here's today one :P She spends averagely $200 on food every week!! Just food only :P lol and she got a very huge ambition but its a secret :X lalalalala

Hmm seen the picture below? lol, go figure out what are those, at least this cute panda knows whats the picture is about. It's more than enough already lol

I wanna go sleep le.. ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzzz

-Cheers-

Colorful Saturday Night..

lols. Lots of random event happens tonight. What to do, i cant book out next weekend. I just grab everything within sight.

Lets see..

Went dinner at Long John Silver with Pig King Ron, Pig Demon Seb and Pig Spirit Occ. It was a light dinner for me hehe. I didn't know what to do after which so i decided to just eat tiny bit to fill my stomach. They wanted to watched Harry Porter, I didn't had the mood to watch furthermore i had so much plans behind after dinner. Pig Demon Seb had grown up already!! never seen him for like 5weeks only, he know how to 'xian' girls already!! omg omg omg lol, when i heard that he's going out with a girl, ALONE, I was shocked!! Followed by go all the way to Causeway Point just to watch the show with her!! Uber shocked!! *mouth/jaw dropped* lol, i may sound very bad but he's such a mama's boy la!! i never seen or heard about him coming back home after 10pm or maybe 11pm? He just got home like at 1am? LOL, SEB im so proud of u!!

hehex, anyway after wasting my time in the arcade with the other rest, my panda suddenly sms me. Something about the sms that i feel, something is not in place :( asked her trillion times and she refused to tell me. I even offered to bring Famous Amos cookie chief to over her house but she still didn't wanna see me. So i decided to walk to her house and call her :X hehe after much persuading, she finally came out to took a little walk nearby. After 30mins walk at the nearby pasa malam, i sent her back home again. lol :X sorry babe hehe but im glad to see u tonight.

After sending my precious panda back home, i called Mr handsome Sir * someone actually call her bf sir, u know who u are ar :X * arranged a time slot with his PA to have supper at Bedok blk 85 :) This supper don't come easy also. Always is i put aeroplane, feel so bad :P *Sorry to u 2* We ordered a super large servings of food. Mrs pretty Sir really can eat man, she ate the spicy large stingray, 15 sticks of chicken satays, spicy sotongs, 8 tang yuan and the German sausages and YA almost forget 3 full chicken wings!! lol, actually we 3 shared everything la :P After eating and eating, they 2 decided to send this large light post home!! We walked home and talk so much about jokers in NS lol. Some of them were really freaking funny. hehe.

After so much of Saturday, im back here blogging and sms-ing my piggy hehex. She's quite kpo actually, and some sort of good actress :P can hide for so long then tell mi. Just now ask don't wanna tell mi, if not i will throw in more goodies :P hehex. Anyway im really sorry that i wasted ur Saturday ok.. Didn't meant to do so.. Just surprised that u actually did reserved a weekend for me. Maybe i just undervalued myself sometimes... Hmm if u did visit here before u go out, let mi know again if u want me to send u back home ok.. :) smileee pretty~

-Cheers-

Am I.. Ladylikedtified?

LOL? if u can guess the word.. Lady-Liked-tified ? lol MY OWN WORD!!

Im heading out to meet some guys from TP. At the same time gona grab more stuffs for my PSP!! heex, gona get more accessory to make my PSP pretty pretty. Tonight there's a mini gathering for my section, chilling session at one of their houses. Don't know should i go or not. I just wanna spend more time with my bed and the peeps online :P or in short, im just plain tired and lazy. Maybe i should meet up with Yandao Cousin and his Chiobu Girlfriend ^^

Anyway IM OFF TO SPEND MONEY!! muhahahhah!!

-Cheers-

*I don't think i ever need to clarify anything on my blog. Whats my relationship with her? Lol do i even care to explain to anyone? Yup sure, go ahead, use my name for everything. As long as u feel happy, feel less sinful, sure by all means, use my name as a shield from anything..

..Just make sure karma don't strikes before I got the chance to do so.*

Mixture of both

Mixture of both happy and unhappy events for these 2 weeks. Didn't managed to blog last week as i was too busy :(...

Last weekend was totally awesome!! I had a wonderful time spending money :P lol!! I finally got my PSP already!! WOOTS :) :) :)

Its in white color. Heres my new love :) hehex

I bought this pretty hot babe on Saturday, 14/07/07. (Those who wanna buy 4D can buy 1407, lol) I went with William and Shin to buy PSP at AMK hub. We bought 5 sets in total. 3 Blacks 2 Whites. This is the first time i drew out so much money from AMT also.


lol look at that stack of white papers.
Btw those are 50 bucks lol, 20 pieces of them, hot and fresh out from the ATM machine.
The feeling to able to count 20 pieces of 50 bucks right in front of the cashier = priceless
Felt so good after spending so much money, hehe. Anyway, after getting the PSP, we went to the staircase and do the checking. Shin brought his shades. So this is his shade :)

Hee, My New Botak Head :P

So, after getting my PSP, i had to rush over to meet Leeshyuan for dinner :) lol, it was a long awaited dinner as someone was too busy to entertain me. What to do :( Shin, William and I took bus from AMK to Tenah Merah MRT station. Shin and I then took a cab off. Managed to get there on time, if not some piggy gona reduce to skeleton already. We wanted to eat Sakae Sushi at Century Square but unexpectedly the queue was bloody long. It was nearing 8.30pm already and people were still queuing up man. As the queen said she doesn't wait, so we decided to move to Tampines Mall to eat Fish & Co instead.

Upon reaching Fish & Co, there was a queue there also -.- I was wondering what was on Saturday, so many people are eating out at that hour? Sianx half. As both of us were starving and lazy :P , we decided to stay put instead. While waiting for the seats, she shared some of her unlucky experience during her service lol. She was made captain and the whole thing was in a mess :X something somewhat somehow had to go wrong lol. *That was the reason why she sounded so bored on Friday night :X *

After a short while, we got the seats already. Ordered some fish & chips. The place was quite well air-conditioned and Panda refused to change seat even though she's feeling cold. *which i don't know why also lol* Asked her a number of times to change till she's irritated :P * Then after the dinner and stuffs, send her over to her Er Jie house to accompany her Er Jie and baby Germaine. The EMO me had to walk out to take bus and go to Shin's place to collect my baby white pearl hehe.

After writing so much for last week, i don't feel like writing about this week already. Lol, anyway there's nothing much that happened this week. I just wanna take a rest and sleep. Next week i cant book out already, its the field camp week. Lol, hope it's gona be fun fun fun!!
-Cheers-

Sunday again?!

Its Sunday again, when I am out on Saturday. Oh wth, why its Sunday so fast. I slept at 6.30am this morning. Lol. Yes I am mad :P

Great new for me, I am finally getting the pay in maximum 2weeks time! PSP is on its way! I gona take lots of picture of this baby precious, carry it in my arms hehe :X Don't know should get white ,silver,blue or champagne gold for the sake of uniqueness , but seriously it look quite gay :P

I feeling kinda chirpy for some reasons lol. Finally i got a sms when i did not sms panda, which i didn't do it on purpose. For that, it just brought a smile to me :) I am drinking nescafe now hehe, finally can taste something calls coffee lol.

Panda is online talking to me lol, better than im waiting sms from her :X This special panda got a very weird symptom. She got POSMS. lol, that makes her stands out from most people already :X hehex, lucky this blog will not be visited during my stay in mainland Singapore. If not i sure tio wack. Muhaha.

As usual, its 3hours+ away from my book in timing. Later gona bathe and get ready and go my ah ma house and eat dinner~ Hope she cooks something tasty!! hehe, before that going to shop my truck load of tibits muhahhahha!!

Anyway panda don't moody ok, remember im always here to listen to you. I have a good ear :)
Miss ya~

-Cheers-

Another song i fallen in love with..

歌手：张智成 专辑：凌晨三点钟

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜
暂时把心放空
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑
baby baby
love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻
话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
baby baby
love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟

*background*
现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后
*background*

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑
baby baby
love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻
话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
baby baby
love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟

凌乱的房间里头
还留着你的香味
怎么也戒不掉你独特的笑容
如果时钟倒着走
我不会再让你走
有些事情要绝望到底
才能看得透