Guardian angels

Thoughts to ponder..

2007-09-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

Too much thoughts to pen all of them down.. Endless thoughts of them..
Some I don't think i should pen them down.. i think i will tell them to Mimi better..

Dao Di Shi Ni Hai Shi Wo Xiang De Tai Duo..
Dao Di Shi Shui Zai Zi Zuo Duo Qing?

Emo week for me, which I don't even know the roots to it.

How Fragile, How Weak, How Pathetic..
Such fragile heart I have, I pity myself..

No matter how hard I tried to mend it, to strengthen it..
It just seems like its made up of glass instead of flesh and blood..

In the past, maybe I choose to break others' heart before mine is broken..
That might just an excuse but it resulted in me being over possessive..

I tried to look at the bigger pictures now..
Trying to find a heart bigger than a bear..

Wheres the strength for me to seek, to try, to give it a shot..
I felt im so forsaken here.. I am starting to give up mending this frail heart of mine..

Dark Monday~

2007-09-17T09:56:00.000+08:00

Dark clouds hovering over the sky.. It's always been like this for the past 4days but its bright outside~!

10am in DA morning and i have nothing else to do.. BORINGGGG.. think for the next 15mins if nothing else gonna happens, i will go for a run with my flu muhaha :P

Last night was fun chatting with Yudan and Kahei over dinner and at Starbucks. We managed to talk for 4hours lol :P

Anyway the Signature Hot Chocolate at TM Starbucks is delicious man~ We ordered large and it was too tasty :P

Are you gonna just leave me like this, alone or am I the one leaving u alone? Confusing -.-

Thursday 13/09/07

2007-09-16T12:03:00.000+08:00

This was meant to be posted on Thursday lol, just one day after POP~!! * POP LOOOOOOOOO*

LOL the 8 of us, 8 including me.. 8 mad guys went to Sentosa straight 1 day after POP from Tekong Island. LOL the names are ME, Bernard, HaoJie, Victor, Junjie, Joshua, Dianel and Randy.

We missed the sun so we went to Sentosa for another round of sun tanning muhaha.. We took lots of random pics. * Gonna post them up later, too many already :P *

Whats missing there are the BABES!! Well, its a Thursday, what can we expect eh? Lol, so practically the 8 of us just slack around, BBQ ourselves under the sun and dip in the sea. Playing frisbees and volleyball. 6 Straight hours of sun tanning on the beach * u can see the side effect on me now :P * After which, we went to this hmm in my own point of view, Classy Japanese restaurant at Vivo City. The prices on the menu are woohoo * 1 bowl of plain rice cost $2.50 :X * I ordered a pork cutlet don with curry and few little small items.. We shared 2 jug of beer too lol, it was bare minimum though.. We still took pictures like some tourist lol.. We even asked the waitresses there to help 8 of us take pictures. The waitresses, most of them are quite pretty *shy* but seriously young, like 17 n 18 this year but they certainly look cute :D

And so the day ended then due to time constrains :/ awwww..

SO here are the random pictures~~~

Its dinner timeeee~~~

A brand new life awaits..

2007-09-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

So fast and 3 months had passed.. didn't thought i might even miss those 3 months of my life in Tekong Island.

No more push ups, runnings, no more living out in the jungle.. I am back to somewhere bathing and sleeping isn't precious anymore lol.

These days I been thinking, been planning, been working out.. so glad that I had seen the rewards to all the effort. Finally, most of my life had pieced back into one.

Be it physically or mentally I had already grown this much.. so proud of myself :P

Now.. theres this much awaits me behind the new door in my life.. and I am just the right key to open this door.. can't wait to open the door of fate and embrace the new warmth of life :)

Well well well.. small parts of my life will always remain incomplete.. just when will you piece the missing puzzle of my heart? The picture will never be completed without you..

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai....

Eye Candy of August

2007-09-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

Eye Candy of The Month (August)

Goes to..

Lim Hao Jie!!

Birthday: 270386
Height: 173cm
Weight: 63Kg
Blood Type : B+
Fitness Level: Ippt Sliver
Status: Blissfully In Love
Hobbies: Gaming, Animeing

:Slogan:
Later my Laopo...

Eye Candy Of September

2007-09-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

Eye Candy of The Month ( September )

Goes to..

Chng Chay Beng Bernard!!

Birthday: 061088
Height: 174cm
Weight: 63Kg
Blood Type : A+
Fitness Level : Ippt Gold
Status: Single
Hobbies: Drawing, Reading manga..

:Slogan:
One step for J coy, One more for Platoon2, One more for Section4, One more towards our Dreams!

What's this indescribable weird feeling?!

2007-09-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, what's this seriously weird feeling I have? I cant describe it but I know its totally negative! shucks!!

A series of good news to be reported..

Good news NO.1 : 3 more days and its POP LLOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Good news NO.2 : Sliver for IPPT !! * Finnalllly *

Good news NO.3 : NOOOOOOO Booking In for SUNDAY!!! * Accumulated too much incentives, MuhA!

Good news NO.4 : Possible chance of Nights Out on Monday and Tuesday!! * Nights out aka out of the island for the night*

Good news NO.5 : I am given a chance to show my sincerity..

er.. I am.. ?

2007-08-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

My dear blog,

I don't know what to say to you..

I added a new tag board on you for some purposes..

Hmm.. I am just tired lol, I did not sleep on Wednesday and Thursday night..

I played basketball this morning at Seng Kang at 9am after eating breakfast with my dad..

I am less than 2 hours away from booking in..

I miss everything and anything and anyone outside camp..

I am so glad that u are here to entertain or rather chat with me even though we are so randomly chatting lol..

I hope this time..
Life lesson learnt will gona be the last few already..
It didnt literally cost me something but it sure inflicted some damage to my heart..

I am more clear headed now, all thanks to your care..

Thank you..

-emo.. again-

Regrets...

2007-08-12T15:40:00.000+08:00

我的人生的一大禁字。。。

悔

这一生，不想再忏悔。。。

以后再也不想后悔或有后悔的机会。。。

我答应我自己。。。

一定要做得尽善尽美。。。

A very naughty boy

2007-08-09T11:57:00.001+08:00

Lets see..

I've been awake for like about 0530am on 080807 till 1200 on 090807..

I still wide awake, but if I were to lie on the bed, I will sleep like a pig..

Then again..

I will be going out this late afternoon, maybe hanging out tonight again..

Lol, I can see myself reducing to skeleton already..

I need someone to care for and to care about me..

Lets seek that someone in my dreams soon..

And I have not filled my 2nd wife with songs yet..

She's just lovely..

Oh ya, been 2months, i improved my 2.4km running timings constantly..

And I think im kinda lazy already, so glad that its still improving..

From the very first time, 16mins for the stupid unfair nafa 2.4km run on TP grounds..

Till the recent IPPT in BMT, 11.40mins and below, a silver timing now :)

Last and not least, I wish i own 48hours now..

Its simply not enough at all.. I wish to sleep more~

Im so dead...

-Cheers-

oopS

2007-08-05T17:26:00.000+08:00

OOpS lol, i got my 2nd wife already :P she's in red in color. HOOOttttTTtttTTT

A pity she cant accompany me into camp. DAMN!! hehex

Thanks Pretty Shyuan for accompany me there. Didn't want to waste the trip there with u just buying 2 pens and having a great lunch there? hehe so i decided to buy that mp3 :P

RANDOM~!

2007-08-05T10:44:00.001+08:00

-Random 1-
Lol seriously im not some EMO freak that worshiping EMO bands. Lol i just love Blues and Jazz based genre songs. I dont really go into EMO lol. I just love love songs? lol love love -.- wth im typing but anyway u know what im saying hehe.

-Random 2-
Im thinking really hard. Should i bring jacket? Lol i so afraid that she's cold but i cant think of any reason why i shouldnt bring jacket for her. Should i wear shades? LOL there's no sun currently! im wearing the pink stripes long sleeves button shirt with jeans. hmmmmm i just afraid that im overly 'anyhow' dressed lol

-Random 3-
Should i just pop out of my house now and go her void deck just to wait for her? Lol we were supposed to meet at 1100 but she's a 'drag-queen' :X The real drag tho :X heheheehehe

-Random 4-
Its totally random but im listening to some new songs lol. And i mean freshly 'baked'.

Justin Timberlake - Summer Love
Mutya Buena - Real Girl
Hinder - Lips of An Angel ( Acoustic )* Great song, My fav :P *
Hinder - Lips of An Angel
Rihana - Umbrella (ft. JayZ)
Rihana - Umbrella, Cinderalla Remix (ft. JayZ)
Coldplay - In My Place
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
Stone Sour - Through Glass

Some old songs too...

王力宏 - 爱错
Matchbox 20 - Time After Time (Live)
Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober
Ryan Cabrera - Photo

-Random 5-
Should i add a tagboard? I cant reply as often as anyone out there lol, i wonder whats the use of tagboard if im not around to reply hmmmmm. I think i should link up my friends too lol, but i seldom see anyone online when im on. how? -.- lol

-Cheers-

Just like good old days~

2007-08-05T09:52:00.000+08:00

Good morning everyone! :) what a nice Sunday morning, light breeze with warm sunlight.

First of all, i would like to wish my Xiao Xia Mei, a very Happy 19th Birthday! May all your wishes all come true, hope that you can find someone who loves u soon :) Like i said, next week I will have a long weekend. So next week find Xia Ah Bu then we go have a nice dinner ok? MY TREAT (: (: (:

Back to what I gona blog.

Hee, this morning I felt like a small boy. My dad brought me out to the Mac nearby to eat breakfast! Like the same old days, at least 10 years ago, i used to have Mac breakfast every weekend with my parents! :) To fit the mood, i ordered the good old Hotcakes :P hehe, and my dad as usual eat his Big Breakfast. What's different now is that we drink the tasteless black coffee now :P I didn't want to order Ice Milo caused Im coughing. See Im such a good boy :X

Packed my bag already, today booking timing really sucked. 1830 I have to be at Pasir Ris Bus Interchange already. SADDED... BUT never mind, caused Im meeting Piggy Shyuan soon like in 1hour time, 1100 lol. Taking a walk at Vivo, which i wanted to take a walk yesterday but both of us slacking and sleeping the whole afternoon. By chance, she wanted to walk Vivo yesterday too but her friend was too busy to entertain her. So we decided to walk Vivo today! Its a walk seriously. I just wanna take a look at my new found love which i might just eventually get it later on :X lol. Red or Black.. hmm i wonder.. see what Panda might say :P

Anyway for u people to know, theres someone in the SAF HQ or in short, in the entire army. Theres this someone who is in charge to sit infront of the computer 24 / 7 just to read and search blog. Lol, how i wish i can have that job too!

!!!* Saluting to that whoever reading everyone's blog*!!!

Zooooooom off to get ready already!!

-Cheers-

Let there be light!

2007-08-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

I've been living in darkness when the night fall during the past 5 days from Sunday!!

How much i appreciate bathing and light now, you will never ever gonna experience that if you don't serve the Army :P

Enough of crap i just wanna share the joy!!

Anyway this weekend i gonna spend more money again!! WOOTS

Look at my new found love!!

This is Samsung Mp3 Player, K3 ( Black and Red color)

Awwwwwww, isnt that a beauty!! Its so freaking pretty, i saw the green one my platoon mate has it. Its freaking cool and slick to hold!! :)

Morning Light..

2007-07-22T14:48:00.000+08:00

Slept at 3am, Woke up at 8am
Total time slept : 5hours

My weekend is too short to be spent sleeping lol. That's why from 1st day of enlistment i haven been resting well. Woke up early, washed up and joined my parents for breakfast. They fed me as long army has no food! Lol, ate WanTon Mee, ate Kosong Prata and Egg Prata, with a nice warm cup of Teh. Nice breakfast eh :P Was playing my PSP on the way, finally got to touch and talk to my baby lol. It totally rocks to own a PSP lol.

Reached home at around 11am, managed to fill in my PSP to the max. Im so prepared to go into confinement already! I got 8hrs + 8hrs + 6hrs of battery. muhaha!! But its never enough de la :( I put in movies lots of songs and games!!

After fixing up my PSP, the piggy came online! lol surprisingly she woke up earlier than I expected her to wake up, she's having pizza today la. Every week i sure post SOME random fact about her so here's today one :P She spends averagely $200 on food every week!! Just food only :P lol and she got a very huge ambition but its a secret :X lalalalala

Hmm seen the picture below? lol, go figure out what are those, at least this cute panda knows whats the picture is about. It's more than enough already lol

I wanna go sleep le.. ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzzz

-Cheers-

Colorful Saturday Night..

2007-07-22T02:26:00.000+08:00

lols. Lots of random event happens tonight. What to do, i cant book out next weekend. I just grab everything within sight.

Lets see..

Went dinner at Long John Silver with Pig King Ron, Pig Demon Seb and Pig Spirit Occ. It was a light dinner for me hehe. I didn't know what to do after which so i decided to just eat tiny bit to fill my stomach. They wanted to watched Harry Porter, I didn't had the mood to watch furthermore i had so much plans behind after dinner. Pig Demon Seb had grown up already!! never seen him for like 5weeks only, he know how to 'xian' girls already!! omg omg omg lol, when i heard that he's going out with a girl, ALONE, I was shocked!! Followed by go all the way to Causeway Point just to watch the show with her!! Uber shocked!! *mouth/jaw dropped* lol, i may sound very bad but he's such a mama's boy la!! i never seen or heard about him coming back home after 10pm or maybe 11pm? He just got home like at 1am? LOL, SEB im so proud of u!!

hehex, anyway after wasting my time in the arcade with the other rest, my panda suddenly sms me. Something about the sms that i feel, something is not in place :( asked her trillion times and she refused to tell me. I even offered to bring Famous Amos cookie chief to over her house but she still didn't wanna see me. So i decided to walk to her house and call her :X hehe after much persuading, she finally came out to took a little walk nearby. After 30mins walk at the nearby pasa malam, i sent her back home again. lol :X sorry babe hehe but im glad to see u tonight.

After sending my precious panda back home, i called Mr handsome Sir * someone actually call her bf sir, u know who u are ar :X * arranged a time slot with his PA to have supper at Bedok blk 85 :) This supper don't come easy also. Always is i put aeroplane, feel so bad :P *Sorry to u 2* We ordered a super large servings of food. Mrs pretty Sir really can eat man, she ate the spicy large stingray, 15 sticks of chicken satays, spicy sotongs, 8 tang yuan and the German sausages and YA almost forget 3 full chicken wings!! lol, actually we 3 shared everything la :P After eating and eating, they 2 decided to send this large light post home!! We walked home and talk so much about jokers in NS lol. Some of them were really freaking funny. hehe.

After so much of Saturday, im back here blogging and sms-ing my piggy hehex. She's quite kpo actually, and some sort of good actress :P can hide for so long then tell mi. Just now ask don't wanna tell mi, if not i will throw in more goodies :P hehex. Anyway im really sorry that i wasted ur Saturday ok.. Didn't meant to do so.. Just surprised that u actually did reserved a weekend for me. Maybe i just undervalued myself sometimes... Hmm if u did visit here before u go out, let mi know again if u want me to send u back home ok.. :) smileee pretty~

-Cheers-

Am I.. Ladylikedtified?

2007-07-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

LOL? if u can guess the word.. Lady-Liked-tified ? lol MY OWN WORD!!

Im heading out to meet some guys from TP. At the same time gona grab more stuffs for my PSP!! heex, gona get more accessory to make my PSP pretty pretty. Tonight there's a mini gathering for my section, chilling session at one of their houses. Don't know should i go or not. I just wanna spend more time with my bed and the peeps online :P or in short, im just plain tired and lazy. Maybe i should meet up with Yandao Cousin and his Chiobu Girlfriend ^^

Anyway IM OFF TO SPEND MONEY!! muhahahhah!!

-Cheers-

*I don't think i ever need to clarify anything on my blog. Whats my relationship with her? Lol do i even care to explain to anyone? Yup sure, go ahead, use my name for everything. As long as u feel happy, feel less sinful, sure by all means, use my name as a shield from anything..

..Just make sure karma don't strikes before I got the chance to do so.*

Mixture of both

2007-07-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

Mixture of both happy and unhappy events for these 2 weeks. Didn't managed to blog last week as i was too busy :(...

Last weekend was totally awesome!! I had a wonderful time spending money :P lol!! I finally got my PSP already!! WOOTS :) :) :)

Its in white color. Heres my new love :) hehex

I bought this pretty hot babe on Saturday, 14/07/07. (Those who wanna buy 4D can buy 1407, lol) I went with William and Shin to buy PSP at AMK hub. We bought 5 sets in total. 3 Blacks 2 Whites. This is the first time i drew out so much money from AMT also.

lol look at that stack of white papers.
Btw those are 50 bucks lol, 20 pieces of them, hot and fresh out from the ATM machine.
The feeling to able to count 20 pieces of 50 bucks right in front of the cashier = priceless
Felt so good after spending so much money, hehe. Anyway, after getting the PSP, we went to the staircase and do the checking. Shin brought his shades. So this is his shade :)

Hee, My New Botak Head :P

So, after getting my PSP, i had to rush over to meet Leeshyuan for dinner :) lol, it was a long awaited dinner as someone was too busy to entertain me. What to do :( Shin, William and I took bus from AMK to Tenah Merah MRT station. Shin and I then took a cab off. Managed to get there on time, if not some piggy gona reduce to skeleton already. We wanted to eat Sakae Sushi at Century Square but unexpectedly the queue was bloody long. It was nearing 8.30pm already and people were still queuing up man. As the queen said she doesn't wait, so we decided to move to Tampines Mall to eat Fish & Co instead.

Upon reaching Fish & Co, there was a queue there also -.- I was wondering what was on Saturday, so many people are eating out at that hour? Sianx half. As both of us were starving and lazy :P , we decided to stay put instead. While waiting for the seats, she shared some of her unlucky experience during her service lol. She was made captain and the whole thing was in a mess :X something somewhat somehow had to go wrong lol. *That was the reason why she sounded so bored on Friday night :X *

After a short while, we got the seats already. Ordered some fish & chips. The place was quite well air-conditioned and Panda refused to change seat even though she's feeling cold. *which i don't know why also lol* Asked her a number of times to change till she's irritated :P * Then after the dinner and stuffs, send her over to her Er Jie house to accompany her Er Jie and baby Germaine. The EMO me had to walk out to take bus and go to Shin's place to collect my baby white pearl hehe.

After writing so much for last week, i don't feel like writing about this week already. Lol, anyway there's nothing much that happened this week. I just wanna take a rest and sleep. Next week i cant book out already, its the field camp week. Lol, hope it's gona be fun fun fun!!
-Cheers-

Sunday again?!

2007-07-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

Its Sunday again, when I am out on Saturday. Oh wth, why its Sunday so fast. I slept at 6.30am this morning. Lol. Yes I am mad :P

Great new for me, I am finally getting the pay in maximum 2weeks time! PSP is on its way! I gona take lots of picture of this baby precious, carry it in my arms hehe :X Don't know should get white ,silver,blue or champagne gold for the sake of uniqueness , but seriously it look quite gay :P

I feeling kinda chirpy for some reasons lol. Finally i got a sms when i did not sms panda, which i didn't do it on purpose. For that, it just brought a smile to me :) I am drinking nescafe now hehe, finally can taste something calls coffee lol.

Panda is online talking to me lol, better than im waiting sms from her :X This special panda got a very weird symptom. She got POSMS. lol, that makes her stands out from most people already :X hehex, lucky this blog will not be visited during my stay in mainland Singapore. If not i sure tio wack. Muhaha.

As usual, its 3hours+ away from my book in timing. Later gona bathe and get ready and go my ah ma house and eat dinner~ Hope she cooks something tasty!! hehe, before that going to shop my truck load of tibits muhahhahha!!

Anyway panda don't moody ok, remember im always here to listen to you. I have a good ear :)
Miss ya~

-Cheers-

Another song i fallen in love with..

2007-07-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

歌手：张智成 专辑：凌晨三点钟

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜
暂时把心放空
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑
baby baby
love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻
话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
baby baby
love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟

*background*
现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后
*background*

那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑
baby baby
love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻
话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
baby baby
love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟

凌乱的房间里头
还留着你的香味
怎么也戒不掉你独特的笑容
如果时钟倒着走
我不会再让你走
有些事情要绝望到底
才能看得透

I am out.. AGAIN

2007-07-07T16:19:00.000+08:00

Booked out - 1040 -
Marched out and reached the jetty - 1110 -
Home - 1300 -
Booking in - 1930

Had a tedious and heavy week on my upper body this week. Strength training and more strength trainings. I feel the ache every where else beside my arms. Funny isn't it. Lol, either they are not growing physically or 'internally', i just felt numb at my arms. Averagely did 100 over pushups in installments daily at least. I hope after i rest well this weekend and I am good to go~!

Read some peeps' blog. Hmm, if i ought to use a single word to describe myself, i will use blue i guess. People who knows me well, yes i am blue lol. I hate reading blogs and going through friendsters. That makes me less kpo than the rest :P reading blogs might just disrupt my mood sometimes, really. I read through some and got the effect immediately. Made me realize how important memories, feel and appreciations are. These are the vital feelings that one in love should show to your the other half.

If theres love, every single little tiny gestures means everything. If theres ain't love, every loved gestures do not mean anything more anymore. The feelings when u recalled are so much different so as to be compared to the feelings u felt at the particular point of time and place.

I recalled what i had done in the past. Yes, i am appreciated but how come i still felt that its never enough? Its somehow always that little bit more sweet, that little bit more thankful, that little bit more appreciative that someone else can/able to give or receive but that particular person will never be me.

Lol, if you cant understand what i said after reading through everything, don't bother to read again. I don't know what i am saying either lol :P I felt that humans will tend to be more forgetful. If its new, u will tend to forget the old and move on.

Anyway, had some lonely nights this week in bunk. I was waiting smses with my mp3 on, it was a Tuesday. The next thing i know my mp3 went flat and my hp was never ringing. Xiao Xia Mei said that if u ever wanna make known how u felt towards her or him, u have to voice it out. How am i going to do that. lol, I may not fully understand myself but i will never be the one who's fooling around when it comes to relationships. I don't tend to have a habit of 'messing' around with anyone whom i don't have the intention of keeping up my effort. I am only capable of putting in more effort than cutting it down if I ever felt that there's chance to do so.

也许是心灵上的空虚，让我分不出是我自己的一相情愿，单方面的爱，还是你的巨决..

Lol, another boring post, just about my inner thoughts which i try to put into words with my lousy English.

-Cheers-

Its time for BOOK IN~!

2007-07-01T18:41:00.000+08:00

Over the past 2 days, been talking to people. People who already went in, people who almost stepping in and those who will never go in. I think i am much better off than some of them who went in already, less restriction and rules to follow :)

Saying that i do not miss home, thats a lie :P i do miss my family and my bed :( but nonetheless i am looking forward to each day in camp to become stronger!! ROAR!! sad to say, i do have Monday bluessss :( can feel the blues is creeping up already, shucks. Hope the mp3 i bringing in will at least ease the uneasiness inside me.

Going to have my dinner soon, hehe fast food for the last meal before i go in again but this time is eating with my family and not friends. I am leaving my house like in 1.5hours time. Time passes super fast, even faster than in camp when u are training and stuff. I hope the next time i open my eyes its Book Out day again!! :P

I seriously don't know what else to update le la, lol trying to squeeze things out to write but going in army makes my IQ go beyond negative. All i can think of is emo emo thingys lol.

I gonna start missing u from zero again..

-Cheers-

1st Book Out Baby~

2007-07-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

*Breathing in Deep and Hard*

AHHHhhHHH~ the air in singapore is so damn fresh!! Wheeee :) anyway i am not suppose to blog or write too much about my ns experince. Due to some law and shit crap restrictions, i better not play with fire. I will use 3 words to describe everything. New, Challenging, Disgusting. My bunk mate could actually use the same bloody pair of socks for 1 week. lol, use some of ur imagination to think :)

Time ticking so fast its Sunday again. I am going in hours time. Thanks to all those who welcomed me back :) It felt really good to be back again. Fresh new hair cut that my precious Mimi doesn't even recognize me. She's so cute la. lol, she's almost shaved like me! Due to her fur too long already, then she keep hiding in the toilet when she's afraid. Silly girl.

I was sick right before the book out :( damn sad. My dad wanted to buy chilli crabs to welcome me back but i had food poisoning which i withstand everything for days. It started on Wednesday. Seen the family doc on Saturday caused i don't wanna bear the pain and everything when im back in there. I wanna focus on my training and have my share of fun :) I have to wait another 5 and a half day to my chilli crab again :( SAD!! other people having fun, eating seafood like free one, going out with girlfriends. Luckily i am not too sick that i cant go out, if not i will cry.

Another sad thing to mention, the day i came out, everyone seems to have new consoles!! OMG, wheres my dream PSP?!! Everyone told me that they had bought DS Light, PSP blah blah blah, SO ENVY :( I can only wait for my working pay to come in within these 2 weeks. Hope i can get the pay within this week so i can get my PSP this weekend!! HELL YEAH!! :)

Anyway i got something to share with u all. Look at this pretty cute pic.

This my one and only PPGLS =X ( Piggy, Panda, Girl Leeshyuan )

hehe, doesnt she look so motherly in this pic :X Baby Germaine in her arms, her precious baby niece. Every time she will go to her Er Jie house to visit Germaine and eat free food that is suppose catered for her Er Jie. Having eaten 'free' food, she still complain that its bad everything blah blah blah :X I find this picture of her look so hmm nice, 贤妻良母
like that :X find it look so peaceful and well-balanced.

( sorry for my limited descriptive vocabulary, this is how good i can describe pretty and sweet )

*If u disagree then too bad, hack in my blog and erase ba :P wakakakak*

-Cheers-

THIS IS IT!! THIS IS IT!!

2007-06-16T10:57:00.000+08:00

Let me finish last night event with my uber typing lightning speed~

So yesterday, my last day out was spent with a guy and a lady. lol wanted to spend it with 3 guys and 2 ladies but no chance :*( SORRY JESS~ end up still cant spend ur actual birthday with you.

The day started off with 4pm, at safra playing billards, my last game of billard with Shi Xiang, lol we played 6games!! which average 1 game cost $1.20? uber cheap but the quality of the table sucked lk anything.holes on the table itself, wth? lol but nvm :) we wanted to play pool after 3games but the kids there are omg! hogging onto the table lk free de lol. We were actually playing billards with us hitting the balls up n down, left to right, right to left, everywhere besides into the pockets! LOL we too long nv touch le :P anyway the game ended just nice, i met LeeShyuan, my the other over grown extra large size Panda :P hehex

I asked her out to eat, FASTFOOD! lol last meal before i go in. She said so random ar :P lol.bobian, tekong no fastfood leh miss :P lol upon meeting her, she told mi she wanna shop for something for Father's Day prezie for some God Father that she's not close with.i asked then whats the point of buying because she really no idea to buy and reluctant to buy :X lousy rite this kind of god daughter :P hehex jkjk~ i gave lots of idea, actually lame n lousy ideas la :X all got rejected!! sigh, hehex :P so ended up we decided to walk TM followed by CS then have our candlelit dinner :X so we went to TM lvl2 and decided to have our dinner because she cant decided what to buy.

So we went down to lvl1 and walked outwards to BK~! My GOOD BROTHER! BERNERD ANG!! he look at my Panda and did not SEE me!! im like OH MY GOD :X hahax nvm, i make sure he sees me the 2nd time, so the two gaint Pandas walk to BK to take a look, no seats, or rather i dont want to share :P so we decided to go for a walk first. We went upwards to CS. We went all the way up just to go all the way back down :P then again we pop by BK to take a 2nd look, still no seats! :P then we walked back to TM to walk. We went all the way up just to go all the way back down again. lol we too free already la :P At that point of time, she decided to buy food voucher instead. We went to basement to check Fish & Co out. She refused to go in caused she says its crowded, they no time to serve her. Then we finally decided to go eat at BK and not look into it. I thought the people that might think we are some kind of poor, only can look no eat :X so i insisted that no matter, we go in sit down n just eat :p

This time, we walked past BER again! He still looking at Leeshyuan and nv see me. After 5mins, he finally look at my direction and A me. This kind of brother ar u!! :X lol after a short chat, we went to BK and eat. I am afraid this Panda gets hungry easily, so i ordered alot for her. End up she tell mi she very full, cant finish le. So what happens next? I finished everything lo!! doesnt pay to be nice :P hehex. We done with our date dinner and nothing on hand to do. She decided to visit her baby niece, Germaine! She been looking at Germaine for like days in a row la, cant get enough of her. So we took a bus and went there. It kinda near my sec sch, Dunman Sec~ Lol the walk was so short la, too short for me :( lol.anyway we took a pic. *You dont mind me showing everyone the two Pandas right :X *
*edited* ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION!, this evil ah yee lee shyuan, enjoy poking her baby Germaine!! almost!! she say she keeps poking her till she reacts then go back to sleep, OMG!! EVIL !! LOOK OUT FOR THIS EVIL AH YEE LEE SHYUAN!!

LOL can stop blogging already, i just wanna post this picture up :P

I wanna thanks so much people, i wanna tell u all how much i will miss u all. But i got no time already. So i will blog after im back..

Last song : 许玮伦 & 曹格 - Freedom
A Super Emo SONG!!!!!!!

ps * no matter how much u trying to show u care, no matter how many sms and calls, its useless, i will not ever forget what i went through*

-Cheers-

TO LS: take care, You'll be missed, thats the line from u.
I will miss you, thats the line from me.

To all the boys and girls: take care babies. i love u guys

OUT OUT OUT

2007-06-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

Powder : Checked

Eye shadow : Checked

Eye liner : Checked

Lipstick : Checked

OFF I GOOOOOOOOOO!!!

MORE.. MOREEEE!!!!!

2007-06-15T15:26:00.000+08:00

Oppss !!She found out im taking pictures of her already!! :P muhaha, She's MIMI!! my precious :)

My prata with F&N Ice Cream SODA!! :)

Muhahaha!! More hair pic of mi!! these are pic after i just bathe n messed up my hair :P

I love my hair day

2007-06-15T11:33:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11am!!!!

2007-06-15T02:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm if i had missed out anyone, which i hope i had not, sorry about that k :) its 2.48 am already, if i am going out i think i better sleep now already. Anyway if u saw ur name in the post below, do leave a comment :) i dont think i wanna add a tagboard in my blog, i think its totally meaningless la. about the link list i will add that once im back from camp alrightly :) and also if u see any one u know in the list below, do ask them to visit the blog :P do mi a favour oso hehex :)

Taking some time off to thank some people..

2007-06-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

Thank You, Hui lin.

You were always there for me. I wanted to blog some post for u but I am just too lazy to pen all of them down. Just briefly put some here, hope u don't blame me :P Still remembered when im the most Emo during the past weeks, u scolding me for walking in the rain, saying that i think its drama ar lol :X I fell sick, had fever for nothing due to that rain. The times u scolded, they always come true, not blaming you but thankful that you still cares :)

Thank You, Yi lin.

I think i am proud to have u as a friend i guess, A Cosplayer. I admire your courage to Cosplay someone. When i get better, I will join u to Cosplay. I promise! :) 14/06/07, you played Love 2000 on piano, a song from some Jap drama * cant remember the name * I think you're the first to do that ba. Lol, really appreciate that, it was really nice but if u see this line yourself, that will be better ba :)

Thank You, Jocelyn.

Hmm, not very sure what ur this er zi had done, but ya maybe if u had pass by this blog, do forgive me also for anything and everything i have or have not done ok :) Thanks to you, i have gotten stronger also. You were one of the few who stood by me all these while too :) May u this Queen Wong, live happily ever after with ur King Wong :)

Thank You, Eileen.

No joke! This girl here really cheers me up just by hearing her voice, like a sunshine in da morning! :) Envy ur boyfriend to have such a nice girlfriend, but control your temper please :X PMS is something u can try to control, its not by nature :P Work hard ar u, 3 years of work experience man~! Jiayou~!! come out i treat u eat, or u treat me eat also can :)

Thank You, Lydia.

You go girl~! Going round and round the world right!! So cool lo, after a trip to Hong Kong, now u already at Malaysia. Don't even have the chance to catch you before i go in camp :( sad. lol in any case, thank you so much for making me this brave, this strong to carry on. Stay strong, at least not weaker than mi alright!! Hope to hear good news from you and study hard ya!! Glad that you are not in halls anymore, stay out of guy troubles :P

Thank You, Jesslyn.

Its your birthday right before i go in camp, I hope i can spend some time with you on the birthday :) Lol, this girl here, has a appetite of some huge monster :P always eat and eat nonstop, best part is u will never grow outwards :) told you already, ur stomach got a huge huge worm inside already still don't wanna go see doctor. Bad girl. Anyway best wishes for your birthday :)

Thank You, LeeShyuan.

Hmm, I not very sure what i want to thank you what also. Been sometime that we last met ya, 3 years~ Glad that you had not forget all about me :P hehex, i think that night i also don't why i share my past with you. I think i just wanna thank you for accompany me sms through the night i guess. Even though i kept saying i wanna pei you to sms since you cant sleep, but i realize i am the one who needs the company and not you :P Its easy, u can reply until like theres nth to reply, but i still can cook up 2 msg long sms to reply u. LOL!! *blush* ONLY FOR U OK!! i don't do that for anyone de lo. Maybe just miss me alittle bit i very happy already :P

Thank You, Yudan.

THANKS BRO!! This guy here, my brother lai de :X lol!! taught me lots of stuff, help me through when i am so EMO!! Hope u can come into the same company as me, then HO SEH LIAOX!! u cc me i cc u :X * cc = cover caqeng* Really thanks alot to you, if not i don't know how i make through till today. Anyway u know your limits ar~ dont anyhow anyhow and spoils karma ok~!! Easy come easy go~ Good luck to ur babe hunting!! :)

Running out of time!

2007-06-15T01:26:00.000+08:00

I am back from the mini outing with my cousin, Jason and his gf, Jocelin. I think they wouldnt mind me mention their names in my blog :P So the day started 5.45pm at Bugis Mrt control station. I met my cousin there first as his gf had to work till 7pm at Media Crop. We went to the pool place opposite Bugis which i know its worth the money playing pool there. Its around 8+ per hour i think but we paid $13 after an hour i guess. Kinda expensive but its once awhile i play there, so its ok :)

After playing pool, both of us went to Starbuck to slack while waiting for his gf. We just rot and talk crap till his gf arrived at around 8+pm. We wanted to eat Sakae because Jocelin preferred Jap food over the others according to Jason :P but after walking around on the 2nd level of Edge, we decided to eat Fish & Co instead. We ordered Seafood Platter for Two for the 2 of us and smoked salmon for Jocelin. Finally got the chance to eat Seafood Platter from Fish & Co! It was a super large serving for the two of us tho. The cost of this dinner was $72~ The GST and service charges are horrible. Really~

We proceed to the movie gallery after dinner as we had bought the tickets early on. We watched Fantastic Four : Rise of the Silver Surfer. Whee~ The movie is quite balanced with both drama and actions :) Worth $9.50 if you are watching on weekends too~! :) Nevertheless, its still a movie from Marvel Comic so its the Happily Ever After ending for this movie. After movie, we decided to go nearby to have some desert but ended up, we ordered too much Thick Toasts at TSC already. *I forgot whats the full name :P * Jocelin ordered mango pudding, ordered Peanut Butter with Condensed Milk Thick Toast for Jason and I ordered Honey with Sugar or Butter Thick Toast. We wanted to vomit upon the sight of the Toasts. They were huuuugeee~ The Honey Thick Toast is sweet till the max + the Peanut Butter Toast is thick till the max! Oh My God~ We flagged a cabby and went home from there in Comfort :P

So now im home~! I am left with Friday. Woots. Don't know where should i go. I don't even know should i stay home n sleep not. Or should i just flood my day lol. Go meet Jesslyn for her birthday at 4, followed by go meet Yilin during evening at orchard to get her stuffs then wrap the day up with supper with my friends. LOL Running Out Of Time already~!!..

-Cheers-

2007-06-14T14:43:00.001+08:00

I wanted to just highlight some of the lines, but the more i look at the entire lyric of this song. The more i feel that the song is entirely describing the whole incident. Every single bit of the lyric just pierce through my heart, every single word just hurt like salt over wound..
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歌曲：错了再错

歌手：张栋梁 专辑：王子

作词:陈佳明
作曲:李偲菘

退到了绝境再退
破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下

我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

爱或痛彼此纠结悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧

我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我

我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

为什么连谎言你也不说..

I thought i have plently to blog..

2007-06-14T14:25:00.000+08:00

Ended up, i had very little stuff to blog. sigh. Hmmm i had been enjoying and slacking every moment of the freedom. I am left with 1days to be exact, Saturday will be the day i going in. Tonight will be going out with my cousin and his gf. This is the first ever time that i go out with him. I hope its a good experience lol. I am glad that i changed a little better, asking my cousin out instead of him asking me out. I am happy that i can witness such changes before NS.

My parents are seriously worry-sick about me going in NS. I think me, myself ain't that worry at all. I am so determined to change my attitude and of course, making full use of this chance to build myself up. As i had mentioned to some people that cares, it might just be a shimmering chance, shinning brightly at me that its an opened door from heavens to just let mi leave my past behind and just move on. Looking back, i think i had done so much stuffs that made me regret here there everywhere. The next best thing that can happen to me is not to meet someone i can place my heart with, but to make me stronger and not to regret the things i will do.

As someone had mentioned to me, if the girl had to leave for another guy, she is not worth your love. This simple short sentence could mean alot to me. It could just represent that so what if u cares alot, worries everyday that she might just leave u. If the reason is because of the other guy, what can u do also. It sounded quite logically. If u can love with a open heart + a open mind, things will be alot easier for the 2 people in a relationship. Things will not be as messy too. Why hold on so dearly onto someone who is not worthy of your love, and comes back up to you and say, " You had already lost me somewhere back there..."

Hmmm, been some time that i had sms-ed someone for hours. To be exact, i had never sms-ed someone for hours for the past years i think. Be it its a single sided or a two way street, i enjoy the nights with you around :) Thank you.
As i know i cant be that selfish, i am a man who is left with DAYS of freedom, i cant hog on to anyone just because i wish to. Oh well, its up to fate again.

-Cheers-

Change over mood

2007-06-06T14:01:00.000+08:00

I changed my desktop theme, window media player's skin. I added some fun element into my blog too :P hehe. I wanted to blog about yesterday but apparently, i do not have the time to blog about it now. I am heading out at around 3.30pm. So what changes i made, the pictures i will post it up later. I will also post my entry about yesterday. I am feeling happy :) The hand writing thingy is a temp only. The heading might just change into 10 Ladies u find in this blog, Look Out For It~!

Apparently, my friend just scolded me flirting, lol its not flirt, its a privilege. I will be sleeping with guys for 2 long years. Why would i even wanna find guys to take picture with. 2Years is enough for mi to turn gay. HAHA :P

-Cheers-

*What goes around comes around. Best represent karma :) *

anyway here are the pictures :P

*As u can see the slight level of transparency between those two pics.*

Fever day number 3~

2007-06-04T18:24:00.002+08:00

Its the 3rd day i am having the darn fever, i guess it wasn't merely a simple fever. Its the combination of flu and throat irritation. Despite being so sick, i still have to crawl out of bed to go to work. It wasn't that bad as it was the 'easier' day out of the rest. I might be able to go home maybe even before 12noon. My fever had been playing a fool, jumping around between 37.2 till 38.6. I think i am so addicted to have a thermometer in my mouth, hehe. Been taking my own temperature now and then. Kinda fun tho, lol. So i had a nice shower out, i was feeling good before stepping out of my house. Once i am out of my house, i am perspiring like mad. I am perspiring that much due to my fever. When i hit the mrt station, i was like so uncomfortable already. That feeling totally suck! Who says that formal is " So cool man ". After weeks of formal wear, i am so sick and disgusted by it already. It a darn lie!! Its never cool!!

Anyway, Shin, William and I took the oncoming train towards Aljunied mrt station. My current work place is at Geylang Polyclinic, 2/2 days. I am kinda expecting the work load wont last till 1pm latest. In any case, we reached Aljunied in 1 piece despite the 'act blur + act blind' people squeezing in the entrance where we were at. Seriously, only idiots couldn't not tell that theres no more rooms. They still pour in like nobody's business. There was a fucker, really is. Imagine i am a girl, with maybe a 'B cup', his bloody back was rubbing against me can. If i am a girl, maybe i would just slap him immediately. What a jerk man. ANYWAY, that was a assumption, his bloody back DID go against me, that was like so gay can -.-!! damn that fucker, really. We reached earlier than expected, thinking that we had sufficient time to complete the work for today, so we slack at the nearby macs to have our usual breakfast. It was meant to be a small breakfast, i did have a light one, but both of them did not. Ended up eating like mad. They are just monsters with huge appetite.

After that so called light breakfast, we got started at the Polyclinic and the crowd in Polyclinic was unbelievable. Maybe its just any other typical Monday that people just love to 'geng' MC for not going to work.

*For ur info, Geylang Polyclinic has four levels.
-Top level is for seniors tenants.
-Third is for babies, mental health and myopia centre (mainly for kids)
-Second is for normal consultations
-First will be u register and see the docs, pharmacy, lab and xray room are located here too*

We moved to carry on our work at 3rd level. It was fairly less busy at non consultation rooms. So we really took our time, hehe. As i already announced that i am quite sick, so their pace was slowed down by me :P. We slowly dragged our feet to each rooms and recorded down the assets. There was a room without any docs. I seen the weighting machine in most rooms on 3rd level. The last time i took my weight with formal suit + shoe, on this digital weighting machine was last Thursday. It was around 69kg. So i decided to weight myself again, i almost fainted. I merely sick for 2day 2nights and my weight is 67kg with my full suit?! I was like "Oh my god", I exclaimed to shin which was dragged around by me, "I dropped 2kgs over the wkend!" I am not happy at all can, if this goes on I will die before going in NS, I admit that I didn't ate that much the past few weeks, maybe maximum of 2 meals per day, on the average it's 1 meal per day. To my relieve, Shin weighted himself too, he lost 2 kg too. i was like " lol, phew" *crazy tots for sick person, lol*

Anyway i shall cut the crap and move on to the highlight of my day. After petrolling round 3rd level, we went into the Myopia Centre for small kids.

*For ur info, Myopia is another term of short sightedness. Your child can be inherited from you if u have it or long term of using computers and doing stuff by straining your eyes for long period of time.*

So the 3 of us started from the counter, just nice, there's this small little boy. I guess his age is maybe a maximum of 7 years old, or even younger than that. We stayed at the counter and noted down the assets there. The nurse there bring that small boy to the counter, she needed to drop some eye drop into his eyes.
* Nurse : " Come boy, i put some eye drop for u"
* Boy : " Don't want!! i scare pain..! "
Nurse drop 1 or 2 drops on his hands..
* Nurse : " See, not pain right, come i help u put some eye drop"
* Boy : " nod his head "
Nurse approached boy to put eye drop..
* Boy : " I don't want i don't want, its painful"
After some persuasion..
* Boy : " I don't want my eyes to drop"
LOL, that boy is just cute la, lol eye drop = eyes really drop
After a lot of persuasion..
* Boy : " I don't want, later my eyes bleed"
LOL, In conclusion, he watched too much television already..

After that exciting drama, we were practically laughing our way our of the Myopia Centre after our work is done. Then again, we resumed back to the boring job again. This time round, i stayed around to do a round up figure of everything thing, counting the papers. My nose really wanna drop already, i used like 3 packets of tissue can. I kept running to the toilet to clear my nose because i ran out of tissue!! The work of the day is ended when we walked out of the Polyclinic. According to the other 2 monsters, we were going to have lunch nearby. William said that his ah ma stayed nearby, so he's familiar around this area. We followed his lead but in the end we were walking in circles until we decided to just sit down 1 coffee shop and just eat. Realized that the girls at that area dressed almost similar to each other. The ear rings, the face, the outfit and most of all the hairstyle. I think people staying in the east would not be able to see them.

After my proper meal of the day, we decided to grab some bubble tea. William and Shin was attracted by the $1 per cup signboard. * cheap, wahaha* So we ordered 1 cup of Oreo mint for Shin, Oreo Chocolate for William and Honey Milk Tea for me. The aunty asked, " white hor the honey milk tea" I didn't really caught what she was referring to, anyway i just nod my head lol. To my surprise, this is the first ever time i seen Honey Milk Tea, WHITE in color. I had the picture of it but don't think can tell its white. Seriously, its Milky WHITE in color!! I slightly regret to order such a thing, but after i took the 1st sip of it. HEAVENLY~! Without even have to ask the aunty to put in more honey, i took the 1st sip and my mouth was filled with the goodness of honey and delicious milk in my mouth. Totally worth it for just $1. Even though i am quite bloated at that point of time, I could even finished the whole cup. It was totally cooling and sooting. Totally~ A pity that the shop is located quite deep inside, a secluded area of Aljunied. Once again we walked under the hot sun back to Aljunied Mrt station. It wasn't a boring walk. It's alway so interesting to hear the stories about their past * even though most of it are disgusting. In fact, 90% of the stories!! But i had a great time, laughing our Asses off lol. This is the 2nd time i ever laugh my Ass off with everyone lol, the 1st time i haven not blog yet, its on Saturday. It totally felt so great but it didnt cure my illness :( but it helped a lot :) its near dinner time, i took almost 1hr to post this entry lol. Didn't felt like having my dinner...

- Cheers -